I have been dreading this post. It's been on my mind for a while now and I've tried to come up with something clever and witty, but all I get in my head is sadness. I shouldn't be sad. I should be happy, upbeat and positive and I am...but I'm sad too, perhaps I'm many things, least of all....worried.
We are on our way to SLO and I'm sure we are laughing and singing in the car mixed in with a few words of wisdom from me and Eric, but I know my family, I know my daughter and I know myself. There will be an underlining feeling of sadness and the "not knowing" of what the future will bring. But when I think about it, this is what she has worked so hard for...This IS the future...it is happening NOW. I don't have to tell you all the work, effort and time she has put in to get to this place, nor do I have to pledge my love and pride I have...but this time has come way too fast.
And so, with all this said and done, here we are, taking the next step in hopes that everything will turn out alright and it probably will.
I feel for ya. It was hard to drive away from the school after we dropped her off. I saw Dads hugging their daughters slipping rolled cash into their hands. It was all touching. And then there are the kids like, "You can leave now".
ReplyDeleteMy wife still struggles a bit with it and this is her second year. Mine never returned home. She rented an apartment at the end of the year and stayed and worked through the summer.
It is what you raised them to face and yet it can be hard. She seems like a great kid and I am sure she will make you proud.
She will be fine! And so will you! At least she's in the same state. A friend at school left her son in Colorado and had to come back to Kuwait -- thousands and thousands of miles away so she's finding it a bit difficult. We give them wings to fly and roots to find their way home. Sending hugs, Tammy
ReplyDeleteChin up, bunny love...♥
ReplyDeleteAllow all that pride you must be feeling, to lift you up. Isn't it strange how you work so hard to raise them to be strong and independent and then when the day gets here, it hurts so bad to let them go! Blessings, Bunny.
ReplyDeletevery well written!!! hugs to you
ReplyDeleteBunny,
ReplyDeleteI KNOW this is hard but, it's gonna be OK! You will be sad for awhile & then you will know that it is right. AND GOOD! You will be so glad to see her when you do & so glad for the new life you can make for yourself. YOU will be surprised that you will change & make a new life for you. I ADORE my boys but, I now love my life... There is a time for every season my friend. EMBRACE IT! CREATE IT & MAKE IT YOURS! HUGS!
Charlene