I Wish...

I know your tired of reading about my back, but just think how I feel. Useless, ineffective, unprofitable, idle, pointless, inept and any other adjective you have on your mind. At least I can sit at the computer...that's obvious. I wish I could go for a walk and check out the neighborhood and I wish I could go swimming, even though I look terrible in a swim suit and I wish I could go to TJ Maxx and Tuesday Mornings, my favs and just walk and walk and look and look. And I wish I could go to the OC Fair and watch my daughter in action and get in her way and I also wish I could go to Michael's because I'm thinking about making bracelets so that Eric and I could be independently wealthy and I wish I could go to the bathroom without cringing at the thought of getting up or down. Oh and I wish my husband and I could do a little fooling around sometime very soon and I wish I could wash my car or maybe my squirely grandsons can do it, but I wish I could have them over for the day. I wish I could straighten up my house and listen to music and dance while I'm doing it and I wish I could sleep without waking up every hour and a half because of the sharp pain and I really wish I was a better patient and I wish I would try harder to not be so grouchy and recognize that look of "walking on egg shells" on my families faces. But what I really wish is for a better economy and that my back problem is just temporary. I wish~